Back to School Night

Back to school night was Thursday, and let me tell you it was one of the busiest days of my life, I arrived at school at about 3 in the afternoon, started decorate, getting everything in order, and talk to student council about the skit, and other such thing for the upcoming night. The

first orientation started at 5:30 for Freshman and Sophomores. It was incredible to see all the new faces, and even some of the old. I was so happy to see some of the old freshman returning and enjoying the school as much as we did. After Mr. Fowler spoke to the audience, Student Council put on our all famous, Dress Code Skit, It was a mixture of television shows and dress code violations to teach the kids about whats good and what should never be worn. It was super fun, Me and Victoria were "What not to Wear" host and I really got a kick out of acting. After the assembly was over, We gave tours to new students and sold all of our cool new Tuacahn apparel and merchandise. Then just as fast as the first assembly got over, the second one for Juniors and Seniors came, where we had to perform our skit once more, and yet again give more tours once it was over. And although it was a busy night, I saw so many old faces that I had been missing so much. After it all was over and the clock hit ten I went home to crash on my bed and remember how much I really love School. I loved back to school night with everyone and I cant wait for class to start!

Senior To-Do list.

Last night, at our last sleepover of the summer, me and my friends all made a to-do list of things we wanted to accomplish during this year, for Noelle it was a sophomore to-do list, but for the rest of us it was our senior check off. I was so happy to be writing down all the things I wanted to accomplish this year, all the things that I thought needed to be said. I wrote down things like, talk to a crush, and take a road trip; just silly things that I hope to check off throughout the year. I vowed to keep that list with me at all times, and when school starts I will try to accomplish a new thing every month. Hopefully by the end of the year they are all done, if not, OH well. I felt that this was an awesome goal setting ritual and I hope that some take my advice and make one for themselves. See how many you can check off, and make it fun and unforgettable.

Goodbye Summer

Wow its been so long since I wrote an entry. But I have been so busy with school, and basically enjoying my summer. I have been having so much fun with my friends that I didn't notice how fast the time flew by. School starts in less than a week, and I keep trying to spend as much time doing everything that I can with friends. I have had an incredible summer though. I think this is one of those summer that you look back and and talk about forever. From traveling with my dad to spending every morning for two weeks with my friends. What could a girl ask for? There was some drama, and a lot of long nights, but it was all worth it. I am going to miss the summer mornings with my girls. But I cant tell you how much I am excited for school.

I never thought I would love school so much until I went on the Student Council Retreat. All of us got together in a cabin out at Pine Valley and just, had fun, enjoyed every minute of our time together. We came up with some amazing goals, and a really great school theme. I am so excited to fulfill all the awesome things on our list! It will be a year that everyone talks about for a lifetime.

ZOOM ZOOM

I feel like my life is never on a stand still. Oh how I wish it was sometimes, but then again I love to travel and I love the adventure! Yet again me and my dad are going up to Salt Lake City, on one of his random whimsical trips, I have no idea what I am going to do there, but hey I love the vacations. I know that this is my last summer to really get out there and do things, and let me tell you I have. I dont think I have been home for more than a week, or been sleep at my house consistently for more than a few days. I know that my parents hate it, and I think they really miss me, but they understand. Its my last summer, I want to live it up and have as much fun as possible. Next year Ill be out of the house for good, and into a new apartment and onto a new life. So this year I am living the zoom zoom life. Always going, never stopping, and making every second count. I love these trips with my dad to Salt Lake. We always listen to music, talk about life, talk about the past, make each other laugh, and just enjoy each others company. I have realized that I am really going to miss my dad when I leave to go to college. I cant handle one week without him, I have no idea how I am going to handle a whole year!! Anyways this was just a little bit of ranting, I was just fascinated with the fact that I travel oh so much, I hope to continue that quality about me for the rest of my life!!

Home Sick

It has been almost three years since I left Moab Utah to come here to St. George for school. In all this time you would think a girl could not get home sick, but I do. I was looking at an article today in the slc tribune about the Grand County Red Devils football team and I started to cry. I really miss going to football games and seeing all my favorite players win a game. Here we are approaching are senior year and I wish I was there to walk down and get our diplomas together. Now dont get me wrong I love, I mean absolutely love, being here at Tuacahn High School. I am Senior Class president, 2 years sober, pretty popular in school, getting great grades, and preparing myself for a life of college. I am really loving my life here and everyone in it. But then there are days like today that I wish I was there, watching my team go out on the field, make some touchdowns, win the big game, go to the after party and celebrate with all my favorite players. I wish I was cheering the red devils name and making every moment with them count. I loved moab so much, I loved my friends and I loved the small town life. But it was so bad for me there, I am such a better person here, I feel better, happier. I just feel a little sad. I want to be there with them. They all seem so happy. I guess this is just a part of moving forward. I knew these days would come where I would regret leaving home. But I think in the end, when I am up on stage with my graduating class of Tuachan High School, and I am giving my speech to them, I will be proud to be up there. I will smile at them and be glad to wear the colors of the Titans. In the end it was the best decision for me. I wish my fellow seniors back and home in Moab good luck, have a great year, and make it last. Make sure to make a few touch downs for me and remember that these are the best years of your life, so celebrate the good times.

Come Back........?

Why is it that when you are finally over a guy they decide to show back up into your life. Like always I forget about the people I left behind in Moab. I am really proud of myself every time I do because I like to move on with my life and search for new, and better things. But I have come to realize that those feelings never last, that right when I feel okay about letting go, those very people come back into my life and make it worse than last time. I want to live my life knowing that I can move on with it. But right now I need to let the world know how I am feeling. So I am going to rant for a minute about how I feel about that very person, and maybe one day he will read this and understand.

I am getting really tired of you coming back into my life. I hate how you make me feel and how I cant sleep, eat, think, talk, act, or do anything in my life without thinking about you. It is bad enough that I have to dream about you and know that it will never happen. But when you come into my life and try to make me feel that way again, well I dont appreciate it to say the least. I am better, I am moving on with my life and I want you out of it. But to be honest I am addicted to you, and I know that is so cliche, but I dont care. Its very true, when you come back and tell me that you want to see me, or you ask me how I am I want to tell you im bad, that you hurt me, that most days I wish that I had never met you, that when I am alone sometimes I cry out for you to help me. I see my friends all moving on and I want to be there. I want you to know that I hate this, that I want it all, or I want nothing. But that would be a lie. Because I want to be in your life, and I want you to be in mine. Its been a long time, but I still wish on a star that you will come back and realize that you need me. I want to be the girl that makes you happy, that you can count on. I am angry, sad, disappointed, disoriented, crazy, tired, and confused about you. I will tell you one day that I love you, that I needed you all those years, and I know you will laugh and let me know you have never felt the same, but I will tell you because I want you to know that I am done, that I wont be thinking about you anymore. That day is not today, and when you see me walking towards you, well you'll know that I am out............for good.

Sometimes people come in and out of your life, sometimes they leave marks that can fade in a day, but sometimes they leave imprints that burn your skin for a lifetime and you do everything you can to heal yourself. Those people deserve to know how they made you feel, they deserve to understand that although you might not of left a mark with them, they burned their mark into your heart and soul, and that you are trying your hardest to make it go away. Those people deserve to see you get married, to watch you move on with your life and to leave behind their memory in the sand. If any girl out there knows how I have felt, which I know there are girls out there, then remember your not alone, and that one day the world will change. You will get better, You will move on, You will love again, and You will survive.

Girls Camp

Wow, so after all the incredible experiences of bear lake, I got to leave my family and head up to the top of a mountain, so I could not shower for another 4 days. WOOT!! I was not very happy to be going to girls camp to begin with, I wanted to stay at bear lake and be with my family, but I had paid up my money and the girls/leaders were counting on me. So we took the long trip to St. George, I stuffed yet another suitcase full of junk, took what seemed to be a decent shower, then I was off the next morning for high altitudes and a lot of hiking! YIKES!! But what can I say, I did it.

The first day there seemed to take forever, but we got to go to Kolob Resevior and canoe and chi-ac for our first stake activity. The water felt great and I loved the feeling of moving the oars along the smooth surface. Although I did get a blister from rowing so much. That night after we got back, we ate dinner and went down to a fireside where we wore our lanterns and our tee shirts as our ward ID. Let me tell you that was an interesting fireside, where I made a fool of myself in front of the whole stake! But that night when we got back I gave my second devotional, I talked to the girls about light, and letting the world see that you have it. We each turned on our lantern one by one and lit the whole tent up, I felt so warm and incredibly spiritually high afterwards that I could not sleep. Me and some of the girls stayed up talking and laughing and just getting to know each other.

The next morning we were all pretty tired but we had some cool activities planed, such as shooting/archery, and repelling. After we did some more crafts and had some free time we headed down to the shooting range. I was so happy to get to fire a gun and shoot an arrow. It was one of my favorite activities. The girls really seemed to love it too. Then we climbed up to repelling, and boy let me tell you I HATED THAT ACTIVITY!!!! We sat up on a steep mountain for 3 hours so that I could get cramps and have to walk back down. POINTLESS I tell you. That night we went snipe hunting with the girls, and I have never laughed so hard in my life. There was so much screaming and running around that the girls just kept freaking out!! SO FUNNY

The final full day we went on what the camp called Mountain Man, which translates into really boring down hill elevation drop that takes you to a camp full of cranky men and a hot headed woman just so we could shoot some stuff and listen to the boring people talk. (I know long translation) But seriously that was such a horrible day. It was hot and the people were so boring that I fell asleep at most of the stations. They all had dumb nicknames, but the worst one was Soyer, I hated that man, he was very rude and never shut up!! Not my kind of man. But the worst thing about that whole day was the hike back. It was so hard that I got sick a little over half way through and started throwing up, but the advantage to that was that I got a Rhino ride the rest of the way up! Score! That night we had testimony meeting with the bishop ric and I have never felt so much spirit. The girls were all very open with their feelings and I was so proud of all of them.

Girls camp was such and amazing experience, and although I know I didn't want to go, I ended up having on of the best times of my life. I love nature and I love my ward!

But, I do love to be clean....HOME!